april vibes forecast
Cards Pulled: The Tower
Month: April
Themes: release, destruction, letting go, surrender
LETTING IT FALL
Our last cycle was about integrating periods of rest to prevent burn out. In light of our pandemic, we have been forced into a collective rest, a pause. Acknowledging that ability to rest can be a struggle especially in these times it is essential to be ever softer with yourself as you remember how to rest. Our world quarantine has definitely opened up a ripple of anxiety and new and/or underlying sensitivities. But also for many it has allowed us to slow down and reflect what we truly value and the truth of who we are when everything known is taken away. This year is cancelled as we understand it.
I did feel something unusual coming on weeks before but I’d never thought it would be as dynamic and vastly impacting as this. We humans will never be the same, even if we were to return to our old jobs, or have been still working. There are a lot of people being laid off as I write this. This pandemic has changed the course of our socialization forever. Many of us are understandably worried about our financial security, romancing etc. Many of us are upset and angry, because the structures that we have built our identities on have proved to be unstable and cruel. Allow yourself to feel upset and angry. Allow yourself to feel everything, you are human and we have no choice to embrace what is unknown and that brings up all the feelings.
The question with this fall, including what we believed ourselves to be, what remains? What remains when you potentially have nothing? Who remains at a trying time? Things that we have believed about ourselves will reveal themselves no longer true, because those parts of us are no longer needed in this completely new world we are embarking on.
There were roles we had to play, particularly for marginalized groups in order to survive this system. This is no longer the case, the structures are trembling and shaking down and our true selves are already here. We are encouraged to spend time getting to know this revealing soul and what its wishes are. What do you need to hear in order to deepen the belief in yourself and those you call community/family/etc.? The universe is asking us to be soft strong as we gently embrace our power and have the courage to embrace each other.
For many others this may shake up relationships that haven’t been solid from the gecko. Not all of us in quarantine are safe, unfortunately. This fall will also deepen relationships that have been rooted in compassion ,kindness, and understanding. I say this knowing this is a tricky time, meaning it will not be without grief. Trust that you have the resources inside of you even if you struggle mend at your own pace. Your true self will give you hints and clues on how to mend and what is the next step.
Forgiving ourselves will be essential as we move through an uncomfortable and necessary transition/s. I offer no concrete solutions or comfort. This is truly playful creative ground to uncover and to rewrite everything you know... cause you must. Know who your communities are, further revealing your purpose and who you truly meant to be. Can we let go of the race to compete with others? There is no where to go right now and there is no top. All our initiatives are appreciated and now everyone is a star, dear human.
Family structure, relationships romantic/platonic, brokeness/wealth all hold new meaning. We create the stories and it will be clear to you what remains, as you let the old world and your old self go. Acknowledge your grief, your pain, but also your newness, your relief, your wholeness. Embrace the you emerging quickly and share yourself shamelessly with others. At this point we have nothing to lose.
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Clairandean is a movement instructor with GoodBodyFeel studio based in Hamilton. @clairitytarot